the road before me.

the road before me is something i have been looking forward to since the start of my poly education. however, now that it is here, i quite do not know how to handle it. for the one who has been giving advice all around, i do need some badly myself.

i have had people wondering why the fuck i did not apply to any of the major universities. honestly, two reasons stopped me. my grades and my lack of finances. my grades are not top of the cohort.or even close.i am very much an average, a C average student. do i honestly think i would last even a week in NUS or NTU? Actually, i have the determination to. but my grades simply will not get me accepted. and i just decided not to apply. this may be foolish thinking or me letting go of an ample opportunity, but no regrets still.

but then again, i am still applying for SMU, SIM & MDIS. however, will i get in? is a big question mark. and if i did get in, will i have the financial means to cope? a bigger question mark. if i got denied on the quality of my grades, i fucking undertsand. i have no one to blame except myself for my grades. but if i got denied or did not accpet cos of lack of finances, i think i kick myself to death. i hope my lack of finances does not stop me from studying.

i have my plans clearly in my head. i know what i wish to pursue. i wish to not let go of opportunities coming my way this time around. but, at times, circumstances outside my control.can influence my decision this way or the other.

lord, i just pray. give me an opportunity to pursue my dreams.

all these university talk is making my head spin. i need to get my head focused on studying and do well. help me lord?

be with me.

~ by gowrideclassified on February 20, 2008.